This story about other people's personal lives is 12 years old, yet it wasn't until this fall that the public started finally getting details that are absolutely none of anyone's business. As you may have heard about in 2003, or you may have forgotten, or you may have never known, or perhaps still find distasteful to discuss: actors Billy Crudup and Mary-Louise Parker dated for seven years, until Crudup left a very pregnant MLP for his young costar, Claire Danes.
Recently, Danes opened up to Howard Stern about what "a scary thing" it was when that happened and the public turned against her. And now MLP has addressed how she felt during that time in her new memoir, Dear Mr. You, which consists of a series of letters to various characters. As Bobby Finger of Jezebel points out, the "Dear Mr. Cabdriver" letter refers to her life post-breakup, pre-baby. Parker recounts screaming and cursing at a cabdriver who got lost until he kicks her out of the cab and says, "I don't want you anymore." Here's the excerpt (via Jezebel):
No one does
My voice was shot and I barely got out
Look at me
You turned at looked, I think for the first time...
My life is worse than yours in this moment.
I am alone. Look, see? I am pregnant and alone. It hurts to even breathe.
Your hand slowly went to your mouth
I’m trying to get through it but I’m by myself every night and every morning and no one, nothing helps. I’m sorry I yelled. I can’t get my shoes on anymore. Please, I know I am awful, it’s been made clear but look at me please
Look at me
She also reflects:
I don’t know what you thought, if you had a daughter or a wife or if my little drama was a hangnail compared to your life. What I wish I could tell you is that I know it may have been. I don’t know what happened to you that morning, or that year, or when you were six. I didn’t know your tragedy or hardship and it was grossly unfair of me to compare my life to yours. I am aware of my good fortune. What I don’t have to struggle for that makes my life easier than most. I have thought of you and know you wouldn’t remember me but I am sorry.
Wow. Devastating. And what is this sensation? Is this what it feels like to be mad at Billy Crudup?