Tiffany Thornton has had anything but an easy life. Her marriage to singer and former reality star, Chris Carney, was a tumultuous one. He was a recovering alcoholic, and a night of drinking ultimately led to his death in 2015.
Although Tiffany believed airing their dirty laundry to the public was not good for their two young boys, she has always been open and honest about her struggles. She truly pours her heart out to her Instagram followers, and we love her for it.
In the weeks and months to come, Tiffany would post about her tough nights, crying alone.
Feeling so blah, trying not to be too emotional before I crawl into bed. Today was the first holiday without you, our kids' first Christmas without their daddy, the first time I woke up on Christmas morning in the past 6 years and you weren't here. I can't even put into words how much I miss everything about you, from your smile lines on your eyes to your beautiful hair, your enveloping hugs, your strong handsome hands, your encouraging words, your tattoos, your incredible dad skills, your voice when you sang to Jesus, being able to text you whenever, the look in your eyes when you were overwhelmed with love for me, fact that you would always kiss me goodbye no matter if I was leaving for 5 minutes or 5 days, your belief in me when I didn't even believe in myself, your jokes (they weren't even very funny but you made yourself laugh and I thought that was adorable) ....I could go on and on. The only peace I can find in the midst of this tragedy of losing you is to know that you are with Jesus now and you are watching over the boys and I. I'm so proud of you, I will always love you and a day will never go by that I won't wish you back. Please tell God I have a lot of questions for Him but that I still love Him and I am looking forward to seeing you again one day when I get to Heaven. And that I'm on a mission now, to spread His love throughout the world, to continue on in the spirit of you, my sweet Chris, by loving others even when they may not deserve it. Do any of us truly DESERVE love anyway? We are all broken, sinners born into a world of free will, always in need of love. So let us as believers stop judging people, stop gossiping and speaking negativity, stop complaining and start loving. Start living the way Chris began to live before he passed. You just never know who might need a little bit of love. #Christmas2015 #missingyouChris