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Kim Kardashian got honest about how cruel the media was to her during her first pregnancy

Kim Kardashian knows firsthand how intense it can be to live in the public eye, particularly when it comes it the body politics of womanhood.In a recent episode of the podcast, We Are Supported By, hosted by Kristen Bell and Monica Padman, Kim opened up about the whirlwind of scrutiny she received while pregnant with her 8-year-old daughter North.         View this post on Instagram            A post shared by Kim Kardashian West (@kimkardashian)Kim shared how it was difficult to keep herself from comparing her pregnancy experience to her mom and sisters. From her vantage point, they all looked adorable pregnant and snapped back quickly.&quot;I was not a good pregnant person&quot; she shared, going on to note that she &quot;hated&quot; the way she looked.&quot;I was so used to seeing my mom pregnant, my sister pregnant, and everyone looking so cute and having these easy deliveries, and it was great, and they snapped right back. That wasn&#39;t me,&quot; she shared.         View this post on Instagram            A post shared by Kim Kardashian West (@kimkardashian) Kim remembered how the media mercilessly poked at her pregnancy weight, even going so far as to compare her to the whale Shamu. In retrospect, the cruelty is glaring.She went on to share that Kate Middleton, the Duchess of Cambridge, was pregnant at the same time, and their bodies were often compared - resulting in even more punching down at Kim.  &quot;It was really, really crazy. The Waif versus the Whale. It was so nasty...I can&rsquo;t really believe it. I don&rsquo;t think it would really fly today, but it killed my self-esteem. I can&rsquo;t believe that this was acceptable and that this was OK.&quot;           View this post on Instagram            A post shared by Kim Kardashian West (@kimkardashian)On top of all of the body shaming, Kim shared she was dealing with preeclampsia which causes high blood pressure and can be fatal in some cases.&quot;I would sit at home and cry all the time. I had to deliver six weeks early with an emergency delivery,&quot; she shared.         View this post on Instagram            A post shared by Kim Kardashian West (@kimkardashian)After North was born, Kim said she felt too embarrassed to go to a gym where others could see her. The months of criticism left her feeling anxious at the notion of others seeing her try to lose weight. &quot;I didn&rsquo;t want people to look at me trying to lose weight. I gained 70 pounds. I would sit in my mom&rsquo;s garage and it was literally probably 115 degrees in Calabasas in the summertime. I&rsquo;d have my daughter in a stroller and I&rsquo;d sit her in there, and I would just work out in the garage and try to do anything I could until I did it.&quot;          View this post on Instagram            A post shared by Kim Kardashian West (@kimkardashian)Now, Kim feels confident in her body again, but grapples with how much she wants to share of herself on social media.&quot;There is definitely a side of me that&#39;s like, &#39;Be who you want to be and post what you want to post. Then there&#39;s the other side of me that&#39;s like, &#39;Oh, I&#39;m a mom, I&#39;m 40, I gotta chill.&#39; I definitely wrestle with that idea in my mind.&quot; she concluded.